CopyCat

Okay, i have decided to do this after reading some friends blogs and decided that this will be a way to let go of some stuff that just floats around in my head, annoying me at any moment.
I guess i should start at the start. moving to batemans bay. at the time of moving i thought that my life was over. i had great friends, was going well at school, and just loving life.
i enjoyed a new town and finding out the new places around, but school was something that was.. was something i did not want to do. i used to be able to walk to school in 10 minutes, now i have to catch a bus ten to eight in the morning with a shit load of people who i wouldnt know from a pole in the street. the first day of school i was shitting my pants, the first thing a teacher said to me was "tuck in your shirt" and as i walked in to my first homeroom all i can remember is being nervous as hell and having all eyes staring and judging me. i can only remember trying to look straight ahead and ignore all the laughs that seemed to be at me.
at recess on the first day i was held back in maths to talk to the teacher about what i had done. my friends left to sit where they normally do and i was in a school ten times as big as my old one. i must of looked like a dickhead, i was freaked. i was pacing up and down the oval because i did not know where anything else was. finally someone in my year spotted me. i had no idea how she knew me but i was so thankful she did. she took me to my friends and that was that. all i can remember from the first day.
for the next half a year i hated school. it was the worst thing. i dont think i said more than 5 words in that half year. but then i met 3 people in science who changed school for me. i started enjoying school, i had some people who were actual friends, just like the ones i left behind.
now im going off track here but i need to say this. i hate dickheads who always assume shit or say shit to be cool. i remember in one re class a quote from a fellow classmate "oh, but they are bum buddys" just because we are good mates does not mean we are having sex. i could say the same thing about you and all your friends you fucking dickhead.
sorry but that had been annoying me for a long, long time. just stupid comments like that really piss me off.
now im sitting here trying to think of to say.... im watching the biggest loser while eating chocolate HA!
i dont know how some of my friends in tumut feel. but i feel like im losing contact with them, i like talking to them and finding out whats happening, this may sound gay but i do. the thing is that i had been friends with these guys for ages and we had many memories together, but it seems like im the only one who thought they were memories, but on the other hand, some of them still keep in contact and we can still talk about anything.
a new junior started at work today. i remember how scared i was when i started, just like at school, i didnt talk much. i did what i had to do, got paid, and went home. now i am more myself at work but this new junior was completly different to me. he asked questions and didnt look nervous, maybe it was just that we new each other outside of work that maybe made him more comfortable.
i tired my best not to make him do all the work, because i remember when i started and was told to vacuum the shop. it was shit.
so thats all have to rant about at this moment, but i also hope my partents do not get ahold of this haha.
so i guess i have to thank the two friends and their blogs
till next time...